distance

My boyfriend is so far away.

Some days its harder than others. Some days it seems everyone has a boyfriend. I see the hand holding, the little looks, the embraces, the pure joy that only proximity brings. The countless conversations one holds without any words. The things you miss when you don't see someone for months and months at a time.

The intelligent thing to do would be find someone who lives here, right?

What to do when no one compares to the way Charlie makes me feel? Nothing is better, nothing is sweeter, he is my bliss. Even if this is just infatuation (which, after 2.7 years, I severely doubt it's just that), I am confident enough to say that he is one of the deepest friendships I've ever had. If this isn't love, I'm not sure it could get any better. He and I, we're closer than family. He deeply understands me and I him. Separately, we are two kids. But the magic we make when we're together - I can't just give it up.

Nothing will change, so the most I can do it try to find someone here, someone else.

It gets so lonely sometimes.