Well, this might possibly be my forty-second attempt at creating a blog to house all my most inner thoughts. All those blogs faded out, eventually. In fact, only one really "succeeded" as a blog, and that was my second Xanga site. I think the problem is constantly feel like I need new things, like I need to find a new way to express myself. That and, I'm always changing the way I write. I think first posts that talk about the kind of person the blogger is are cheesy (an attribute that belonged to most all of my previous blogs, might I add!) so I guess I'll just type words until they make so little sense that I won't be able to understand myself when I look back on this in a few months. I spend most of my free time on MySpace, but I really like the idea of a blog like this. So I'm going to really give it a go. List time!
Some things I have in my life:
- That person who you can hold entire conversations with without saying a word.
- That person who just plain out "gets" you.
- That person who, no matter how many times you fight and say awful, horrid things about each other, and stab repeatedly in the back, still feels right.
- That person who doesn't know you exist, but you still feel like you know them.
- That person who makes you fall in love for the first time, and makes your life never seem the same again.
- A really awesome mp3 player.
- A quite loving family.
- CATS WHO I AM ABSOLUTELY AM HEAD OVER HEELS FOR! (I am a crazy cat lady)
Some things I'd like in my life:
- A turtle, a snake, and a lizard.
- That person who hugs you all the time, for no reason. Just because they like you.
- A cute boy with curly brown hair.
- That person who everyone says, "Oh, that's just Caitlin and ________. They go everywhere together."
Then again -
I've always wanted that intense relationship/friendship, and expected nothing less. Truth is, best friends are fun, but ultimately unhealthy. Spending all your time with one person just isn't how you're supposed to function. And I, amongst many other social flaws, prefer to put all of my energy into one single friendship, instead of distributing it. I'm protective, jealous, and extremely clingy. I feel the need for constant reassurance, and I almost always come on too strong. Of course, I'm not bragging about this. I'm working really hard on changing it.
Wait 'til you hear the epic saga of how I pushed the greatest person I could ever have away.
But that's a story for another day.
Love,
Caitlin M. Willson
2 comments:
i'm stalking your blog.
i hope you don't mind.
and i probably won't comment
unless you've touched me in some profound way..
and if you want
feel free to read me like an open book
i won't acknowledge it at school.
farewell.
Do I fall under Loving Family?
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